it's a mixed feeling.
i don't know where i'm heading to.

options are just ahead.
everything's up to me to choose.
at all times,
there're only two choices
a yes or a no;
a stop or a go.

i'm sick of this.
when i tried so hard to fulfil my commitments
i feel neither here nor there.
this suck.
it is not easy to push yourself at it
but it's worse when you're not appreciated.

i tried to make a choice in between.
i guess,
i'm just not good at it.

comeon,
this is just a challenge to the mind.




i've got no idea what's running through my mind.
i tried to ignore.
i tried to be normal.
i tried to treat you insignificant.

but obviously,
these efforts gotten no results.
i don't like the way now.
the way when i can't control
my emotions
my thoughts
my actions.

okay.
everything, back to basics.
and we're going to be good buddies.
i hope.

don't stand so close to me